Once in a Blue Moon
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Summary: As a child, Sara was never afraid.
Notes: For the LiveJournal CSReports “More than One Past Challenge” Challenge – this comes in under Pretender episode titles, fear and Sara.
As a child, Sara was always sure of herself, never doubted her abilities, believed she could do anything. Not for her the childhood monsters underneath the bed, nor even the angst of worrying about whether or not she fitted in. She was never afraid of anything.
But just after college, everything changed for her, and she misses those carefree childhood days.
Just after college was the time when she was afraid of everything; the dark, her own shadow, the monsters that weren’t under the bed, but under her skin, in her mind. Then is when she developed her now legendary need for little sleep, because when she did sleep, she would wake up screaming, be unable to fall back asleep. It’s also when she began to take self-defence classes, because she was determined that what happened to her once would never happen again, and it’s when she found an interest in forensics, in giving others the justice denied her.
Little by little, she took back control of her life, and she stopped being afraid of her own shadow.
Now she’s older and wiser, living in Vegas as a fully-fledged CSI, and she likes to think that she’s put her past behind her, has come to terms with it.
But there are times.
Times when a victim’s screams interrupt her dreams.
Times when she can’t leave the lab because she’s so fixated on finding that elusive scrap of evidence that will nail someone else’s rapist.
Times when she can feel the pavement against her cheek, the weight of a body on her back, a set of teeth pressing into her right shoulder blade as she struggles against his bruising grip.
These times are rare, just once in a blue moon.
And when they come, she redoubles her efforts, works even harder and hopes that one day, it will be enough.