Drawing Comparisons

Fandom: Line of Fire

Pairing: Roy/Bambi

Spoilers: The Senator

Word Count: 386

Notes: For Christine’s first lines meme challenge

 

She thinks about it late at night, when the stars are twinkling down at her as she sits on the fire escape after another long day. That’s the time when it’s quiet, when she can let herself breathe, and not think about the struggle of making a new life while trying to keep the old secret.

 

On those nights, she thinks about her old life, whoring body and soul in Richmond, Virginia, about how different it is to her new, student life at a community college in suburban Maryland. She thinks about her old apartment, spacious and roomy and beautifully decorated, and she casts a glance over her shoulder into her new. There’s not enough room to swing a cat, and she’s on the top floor of a building where the elevator more often than not doesn’t work, but damn if she doesn’t love it here.

 

She loves everything about her new life, even if she does sometimes forget to answer to her new-old name, Bernadette (because no-one ever really believed that Bambi was the name on her birth certificate.)

 

She doesn’t remember her old life fondly, there is no hint of nostalgia there, but sometimes, just sometimes, she looks up at the stars and remembers the last night of her old life, the night of her twenty-first birthday. Of the perfect day that preceded that night, Roy “buying” her for the day, treating her like she was a real person, not some hour-long roll-in-the-hay.

 

She remembers how kind he was to her, even after the horrible things she said to him, and she remembers the look in those eyes of his when he told her that he wouldn’t kill her father, not because her father didn’t deserve to die, but because she didn’t deserve to have that on her conscience. 

 

She remembers how gently his lips first touched hers, how gentle he was throughout that night, and she remembers that her twenty-first birthday, despite having had sex with five hundred and seven men, was the first time she’d ever known what it was like to make love.

 

Late at night, on her fire escape, when she thinks about her old life and her new, she knows that she wouldn’t go back, not really.

 

But sometimes, when she thinks about him, about that night, she wonders.

 

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